spiritedawaywithfree

i don’t believe in the butterfly effect but if i were to, i think i have fuelled enough self-hate to know that i am the butterfly. R.K.A, Butterfly Effect

sometimes, my heart aches at the thought of you being unhappy and all i want to do is protect you from the bad things: your alcoholic friend, that aunt that caused you grief, your mum who won't stop cussing and the demon inside you but all i can do is be here, while your soul mends itself and i'll wait because sometimes, waiting is better than leaving R.K.A, Learning How To Love

a while ago, i confessed to my mum i didn't know what i want to become. and she told me that i should become a good person. to which i replied, becoming a good person doesn't earn you money. that was when i realised my mind was filled with corruption. R.K.A, Corruption

Rivaille woke up to the sound of the drumming rain hitting the thin window of his bedroom. He turned to his left, expecting warmth but was greeted with a cold chill. That was, right. He had heard you leave last night and gave him a small kiss on the forehead, which could only mean one thing. You were leaving for good. It was about time he thought. It wasn't that Rivaille didn't like you or you, him. But there were things that were better done without interference of people. You had openly told him your fears and pain and how living was simply a hard task. You had told him about your scarred past of wanting to leave all the troubles behind.

you are not a failure. you are not the first draft that was left unfinished. you are a masterpiece of the word 'flawed'. you are the boy who was shamelessly picked on or the person people thought as different. but let me tell you, it is not your fault. you are not a coward. you are not an abandoned building left to rot. you are an architecture of words and veins and dreams that you chose to follow. you are a daisy that grew in the cracks of a sidewalk, and that was not your fault, neither was it mine or your siblings, but i'm not going to tell you that. instead, i want to tell you that you are a constellation of stars that bury yourself

i was never taught how to love. therefore, i didn't know about hugs and kisses or holding hands and cuddling. i was taught to get used to stormy arguments between uncaring parents and cold cobblestones and ripped shoes. so please don't get mad at me when i stiffen at a caring touch or wriggle away from hugs. bite my lip when you kiss and pry your hands when you cuddle. and please understand that on days where there are loud storms and blasting music i tend to huddle away in fear and cry because they remind me of the shouts and screams that shook the walls of my home when my dad was angry but i will take care of you and i'll cook you f

Standing in front of your door, Rin waited patiently for you to come out. It was 6 pm, a little after dinner, the last rays of light hiding away only to be replaced by the eliminating light of the moon. The street lights were starting to show and he stood there, and waited. You were going on a date with the painstakingly beautiful, Matsuoka Rin. All you could recall is when you had met him walking along with Nitori, which coincidentally was your cousin. You shot him a look of annoyance when he studied you up and down. And that's when you found yourself visiting Nitori more and more. And then a few weeks later, he literally, hands down, strai

WARNING: I just thought i'd say that it has some sensitive material that might trigger you, because that can sometimes happen to me. I just don't want you guys hurt or anything.Oh and lots and lots swearing. Hugging your knees to your chest, you trembled as you reached for the sewing needle. The sharp point traced your skin, until you carefully pressed it and drew a line. There was no pain, only the lingering feeling of the needle where the moisture of the blood lay upon the skin that was slightly shredded. *Time Skip* Walking up the stairs to your classroom, you held on to the railing, your legs threatening to fall from the sting. You wer

You waited outside the gate of Samezuka Academy in the snow. It was dark as the last rays of sunshine were hiding behind the mountains. The winter breeze swayed your hair gently and you could barely make out the shape of the snowflake that landed on your nose. You were spending Christmas eve with Rin at his dorm. It's been 2 years since you've been dating. Shivering slightly, you surrendered trying to make out the shape of the snowflake. You saw Rin and a small smile crept on your face. Without tiring yourself, you quickly ran towards him, latching yourself onto him, nuzzling his bare chest. It was obvious he'd just been out running. You nuzz